Calm Down

Take a step back from everything
Breath deep and try to keep afloat
Like a time-bomb ticking
My heart beats


Irritable, Irrational, Insane Me
My skin crawls
My mind itches
My heart is misplaced

I can hear that ticking but it doesn't come from my chest, why does it irritate me so?
Calm Down

Ten Oddly Intimate Things

1. Anyone seeing me Brushing My Teeth (oddly one of the most private moments of mine)

2. Hearing me Sneezing (very revealing in my opinion )

3. Going on a Walk with me (always my test when it comes to boys I like)

4. Touching my Feet

5. Noticing when I am Wearing Make-up (because no one ever did before)

6. Seeing me above water in a swimming pool

7. Being in costume, me or you (I feel like it reveals more than the costume hides)

8. Going someplace New with you

9. One of us Humming to the Radio (not consciously)

10. You Stealing my food  

Lyrical Thoughts

When your world is full of strange arrangements

In the dark shades of winter

Nothing ever goes quite as planned.

Your reason for living's your reason for leaving

Tormented and torn apart

I don't get the answers right.

Let me wake to a moment of truth

I like to see you, but then again

That doesn't mean you mean that much to me

So if I call you, don't make a fuss

I'm unusually hard to hold on to

Blank stares at blank pages

No easy way to say this

You mean well, but you make this hard on me

Here's a simplification of everything we're going though

You plus me is bad news

But you're a lovely creation and I like to think that I am too

But my friend said I look better without you.

Let me dream without sleeping

Let me stand in the silence

Don't ask me what it means

Then your dreams fall apart at the seams

Blockade

There are some words that are as solid as stone
Some orders, some edicts, some commands that sting
Some people who don't know the power they hold

There are some words walled in
Some words left unsaid
Some people who don't want to listen

There are some words that you hold close to your heart
Some feelings that can't be expressed
Some hearts that are bruised

There are some words that have been said
Some pains that have been inflicted
Some wounds left open

There are some words that you regretted
Some hearts left adrift
Some holes that need filling

Some orders, some words, some feelings, some pain, some hearts all mixed up and needed to be sorted
Some blockades you just cannot pass, no matter the time, the will, the circumstances...
Sometimes... life is not fair.

Fresh Air

You take a breath of fresh air,
After living in the smog.
The things you thought you understood
Come into question...

Your heart beats quicker, your breath stronger, your feelings better?
You are refreshed, enlivened... Yet, you question everything you do in this new world.
Are you putting aside the old and beloved in favor of the new and refreshing?

Falling in love with the new
While cherishing the old...
How much love can one person hold?
How many people can one person love?

Do you love it because it is new? Will you love it when it is old?
How do you know? Until that time passes, if it does at all.
But then again, time doesn't wait for anyone.

Unwanted New Beginning

Taking something for granted
Risking taking a step forward
Finding your feet sinking in the sand

Everyone you know moves on
You can't seem to get up the will to go
Hope is pathetic in the face of Will
You hope you are right, you don't have the will to say you fucked up...

Regret, Denial, Devotion

Which is the worst sin?

Save Me.